the loveliest one.
I miss your smile and gentle
kiss – ing me softly.
I booked a trip for the boys and I to St. Paul to see A Prairie Home Companion, October 14th. They are both going to bitch about it but ultimately I think they will enjoy the trip. I know Brad will love the show. We’ll hit their kid’s museum the next day and then drive home for dinner on Sunday. I’ve always wanted to see A Prairie Home Companion.
I keep trying to stay busy: movies, getting together with friends, yard work, reading, writing, exercise, etc. The reading is nice. I have gotten away from reading a few years ago. Since Michelle left and I quit drinking, I’ve found it again.
Yesterday, my meeting with Lisa (my therapist) was great. She gave me this quote I really love:
“the only way out is through.”
I found another quote I like:
“Only to the extent that we expose ourselves to annihilation can that which is indestructible be found in us.” – Pema Chodron
Otherwise, not much else is on my mind. I feel sadness. I feel shame (still). I miss Michelle’s smile and her kiss.